So to be helpful years ago, my dad gave me Dale Carnegie’s books How to Stop Worrying and Start Living and How to Win Friends and Influence People. I started reading the worry one first. That was during the time that my husband was in the process of leaving me and then I found out I was pregnant. Things that stuck in my mind was how he said to think of the worst think that can happen and then make a plan. Therefore you are ready when that worst thing happens, if it happens.
While mowing this past weekend, I was focused on that. You already know I have one reason to stay on earth. With the information from my son about his step brother threatening him and the same step brother stabbing his brother’s foot with a screwdriver; I’m very worried about my son being hurt and killed.
What would I do after he was gone? What if I can’t stay on earth? What if the pain is just too much? With two lawns to mow, I had plenty of time to think. A plan has been made, but no need to set it in motion. As Ian Flemming titles a 007 novel, Die Another Day. It is not today.